Ashes

The fire has died

And all I’m left with are the ashes

The grey remains of what once was

A silver powder, which will disappear with the slightest breeze

 

The earth is spinning

And I’m standing still not moving

The shadow of the person I used to be

A distant image is the life I had once desired for myself

 

The future is uncertain

And I have no remedy

The days seem bleaker with every passing month

A tragedy of loneliness too dark to describe too real to endure

 

To The…

To the past, may it forever rest

To the future, may we hope for the best

To the love, may it fill our hearts

To the envy, may it not tear us apart

To the passions, may they intensely live

To the pains, may we learn to forgive

To the courage, may it drive us forward

To the fear, may it remain just a word

To the trust, may it never fault us

To the regret, may it leave us thus

To the friends, may they always stay near

To the prospects, may they improve each year

I Wish

I wish to turn back the clock and make everything right

I wish I could return to that point and fight not flight
I wish for the chance at the happiness that I had always longed for
I wish for a lighter baggage to fit through the proverbial door

I wish for the fear to vacate my soul
I wish for the ghosts to haunt me no more
I wish for the normalcy that others possess
I wish for the passion that would cause me to digress

I wish for a second try devoid of doubt
I wish for the opportunity to stand out
I wish to let the past rest in its grave
Or else my poor future I cannot save

Choice

A few months ago I chose to quit my job for a better opportunity. Unfortunately, that opportunity didn’t work out and I ended up being unemployed instead. For months I regretted my decision, convincing myself that I shouldn’t have taken the risk, that I was fine where I was.

My choice was based on a foundation of stress, so maybe if I had pushed through it the result would have been different. But the truth is you can’t undo life-altering choices, because they are what make your life. The small daily unconscious choices, along with the monumental decisions, they make up the days we spend on this Earth. Sounds obvious doesn’t it. Yet quite often we forget the reasons behind our choices, because we’re blind to the effects they will have on our future.

Back to my example. At first I perceived my unemployment as a failure, but now I realize that it has been a true blessing. During this free time, unburdened by the stress of a full-time position, I was able to relax. I dedicated time to my hobbies, took care of my health, engaged in new activities, met different people and gained some perspective. In the end, it was my choice that brought me to where I am today and for the first time in almost a decade, I can honestly say I understand what it means to be calm.

Twenty-Five Years

 

25years

Twenty-five years
Twenty-five days
A quarter of a century

Lost my dear?
You have nothing to fear
There are no conquests, no victories

Age is but a myth
For none can avoid the scythe
And you will grow up eventually

So fill this time with memories
Content for future stories
In this very special January

The Effects of Modern Expectations

The line between what is real and what is not is blurred and faded away

Thus the demons and doubts in my head decided to come out and play

As they run around, I sit here on this silent night and pray and pray

Wishing that God would hear my prayer and save my soul today

For these fears and anxieties are driving me insane in every way

And the darkness has consumed my all, leaving  behind ashes of grey

But I still dream of a future not too far, one that’s here to stay

So I continue to plead in prayer “Dear God, please return what has been taken away”

And once again I hope they’re heard, for the madness I cannot delay

 

Miniature Writing Challenge #51

The Future

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What does the future hold?
A warmth from the chilling cold? 
A desire that has finally been fulfilled?
A prospect for the truly skilled?
Unknown to all, especially those who claim
Who beat themselves, but only have themselves to blame
A mysterious adventure, cruel and daunting
With exciting paths, wild and haunting

Such is the future as I see
But don't take my word, it's only me
Twists and turns are what I expect
I wish it weren't the case, but nothing's perfect
Words to be written, such a cliché
The future is not a novel, but a game to play

 

Intro to Poetry – Day 10 (Future)

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