Enveloped by Darkness

Enveloped by darkness day after day

Surrounded by friends ready to play

Alone in a crowd cheerful and smiling

Drowning inside dying and crying

Isolated as usual with limited choices

Invisible among them, but no one notices

Critical sometimes they are of my ways

Silent or furious are my moods without delays

Hearing their voices but not listening to their words

Because often they slay me like sharpened swords

Not great company I am I know

But where else am I supposed to go

Trapped inside myself away from reality

Despising its expectations and meaningless futility

Away when among them, away when alone

Haunted by demons that were birthed at home

To The…

To the past, may it forever rest

To the future, may we hope for the best

To the love, may it fill our hearts

To the envy, may it not tear us apart

To the passions, may they intensely live

To the pains, may we learn to forgive

To the courage, may it drive us forward

To the fear, may it remain just a word

To the trust, may it never fault us

To the regret, may it leave us thus

To the friends, may they always stay near

To the prospects, may they improve each year

Pleasure

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Joyous is the child swinging high

Real is his pleasure

Exuberant is the bride on her wedding day

True is her pleasure

Euphoric is the singer at his first performance

Exciting is his pleasure

Cheerful are the friends who cherish supportive company

Lasting is their pleasure

Ecstatic is the woman after winning the race

Rewarding is her pleasure

Delighted is the man who survived the crash

Relieving is his pleasure

Elated is the baby taking her first step

Monumental is her pleasure

Intro to Poetry – Day 8 (Pleasure)

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The Screen

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This device has been a staple in my life for years, but

it has now become an addiction I’m beginning to fear.

It starts with checking my email in the morning, then

before long I’m streaming and chatting and blogging.

I’m called by my friends and family and peers, however,

all their calls are nulled by the screen, and I’ve disappeared

 I’m transfixed by its beckoning light and imaged worlds, and

have lost interest in the reality around.

It offers entertainment, virtual experiences and information, but

lacks the intimacy of human interaction.

An appealing contraption of attractive power has

locked its subjects in an inescapable tower.

Connected to every country from a comfortable seat, but

lacking the experience. What a cheat!

I sit here behind a screen to write this poem, isn’t this

the most ironic statement you have ever known?

 

Intro to Poetry – Day 6 (Screen)

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Female Solo Travel – The Ups and the Downs

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In the fast-paced bustling 21st century world, women have grown to be more independent. That being the case, it is still seen as unusual for a woman to travel on her own. Whether that woman is originates from a Western or an Eastern culture, liberal or conservative, the question of “why are you travelling alone?” still arises. Friends and family worry about safety, while strangers might pity the lonesome traveller. However there are many advantages to travelling alone that are easily overlooked.

Why Travel Alone

Venturing off on your own and exploring the world is a liberating experience. You don’t have to stress over putting a group together, who would be able to go to the same place at the same time on the same budget, you don’t need to worry about compromising to accommodate someone else’s schedule, and you can change your plans on a whim, without concern for anyone else.  While you might feel cut off by leaving their homes and loved-ones behind, the truth is you are never truly cut-off. When travelling alone you are able to embark on a journey of self-discovery, as well as meet new people at every stop. You can always find someone somewhere who is similar to you in some way.

Concerns

Fear of feeling alone and bored can make you reconsider solo travel. “What am I going to do with my day?” is a common question among new solo travellers. The answer is: plenty. Being in a foreign country, where you are trying to absorb as much of the culture as possible in a limited amount of time, gives you plenty to do. There will always be a show to attend, a museum to explore or an underwater cave to discover, activities and amusements are abundant when visiting a new location. And if you run out of activities during your trip, you can seek companionship in a book or chronicle your adventures in a journal/blog.

Another major concern that faces, particularly women, is safety. Between pickpocketing and harassment, women are considered an easy target, especially when they are walking alone in an unfamiliar area. To avoid a gruesome fate, make sure you keep yourself and your belongings as safe as possible. This can be done by hiding your money inside your clothes instead of in your wallet. Don’t carry large sums of money when sightseeing or shopping, credit cards are preferable. Try to appear like you belong, so as not to attract any unwanted attention to yourself. Walking with a map and turning left and right, labels you as a tourist that can be taken advantage of. Avoid walking alone at night. Finally follow your instinct, if you feel that you shouldn’t be in a particular place then you probably shouldn’t be there. Safe travel is generally about common sense. So as a woman, don’t let your concerns and other’s discourage you from exploring the world alone at your liberty and your own pace.

Delayed Contact

In response to The Daily Post’s writing prompt: “Delayed Contact.”

How would you get along with your sibling(s), parent(s), or any other person you’ve known for a long time — if you only met them for the first time today?

My sister is one of my best friends. She is one of the people I’m closest to the most, by virtue of proximity if nothing else. That being said, if she wasn’t my sister that may have not been the case. While we have many similar personality traits, I believe our first encounter would not end with immediate friendship.  I think I would find her intimidating, and she would find me a little too aggressive.

Imagine such a situation:

We are both invited to dinner with some mutual friends. We would greet each other politely, but I would be seated closer to my friends and further away from her. She would be having an intense economic discussion with one of her friends; a topic  I have very little interest in. The topic will most probably take a socio-political turn, which would attract the remainder of the group’s attention. The discussion heats up, as such discussions usually do, putting the two of us at the center of the arena. While our opinions would probably not clash, our approaches certainly will. She is calm, and I become rather loud in discussions like these. Anyway, by the end of the night we probably won’t exchange phone numbers or Facebook information. However if the encounter is repeated several time, we would end up being friends, although I doubt it would be as close as we are now.

Being Alone

Today I’m going to be completely honest with you; something I haven’t done before. Not to say that there wasn’t truth in my previous entries, but today I’ve decided to be more open. For most of my life I’ve felt that being alone was the worst thing in the world. However as I grew up, I came to realize that it might not be such a bad thing. When you’re alone no one can possibly hurt or disappoint you, but more importantly you can never hurt, disappoint or lose anyone. I know that loneliness leads to many psychological diseases; but there are times, when being alone is just easier.

I feel that I’ve been fucking up my own life. I’m usually quite organized, but when it comes to my personal life somehow I’ve managed to make one colossal mistake after the next. It’s possible that subconsciously I’ve been pushing people away on purpose. I’ve always been defensive, for reasons I won’t get into, and now I doing it for no reason. I’m being bitchy to my friends and family for the slightest irritation. Today I hurt a friend of mine and I don’t think he’ll forgive me. I crossed a line, it was unnecessary, idiotic and inexcusable but I did it anyway. I went out to dinner with two close friends and my sister. I was really looking forward to it and it was going great until that point. I was so frustrated and upset that I ended up leaving early. Being alone makes me secure, because I know that there is no one for me to disappoint, not even myself.