Ranting IV

I’m exhausted and what’s worse I’m really annoyed. I’ve only had three hours of sleep. I’ve had two cups of cappuccino in three hours. Since I started college I’ve learned to work under pressure, not only that I’ve also been able to work better under pressure. Even when I hadn’t slept in days or when I’d slept only for a few hours, I’m still able to spend the entire day on campus; working and attending classes. However what I can’t do, is work when I’m annoyed and/or in a crappy mood. This unfortunately is how I feel right now, like shit. I’ve been awake for seven hours. It’s true I was able to get some work done before I get to campus, however now I’m just not interested.

It’s the worst feeling in the world for me, to lose interest in what you have to do. It makes accomplishing anything virtually impossible. I have an Egyptian law project due in a week and I haven’t begun researching the topic. I enjoy doing research, which many people I know find to be a horrifyingly excruciating task. But when I have to translate laws from Arabic to English, the research processes starts to seem far less appealing; first because, ironically, my knowledge of Arabic is not that good, and second because I find translation to be a dreary, time-consuming process.

In addition to this project, which I find to be a pain in my ass along with the class itself, I have half a book to finish in four days, and assignment due tomorrow and a reaction paper to write. Even though I know I will eventually get all this work done on time one way or the other, it still better to complain about it out loud than give myself a migraine worrying about it all. That being said I need to get going, because I have a lecture to attend in 20 minutes on the other side of campus and wouldn’t want to be late.

Ranting III

I’ve been up since before 1:00 am to study, but as usual I’m procrastinating. I have a quiz, a midterm and a proposal in one day. In fact this all has to be done before 3:00 pm. What I have done so far is close to nothing. I skimmed through my reading for the midterm, I haven’t started studying for my quiz and I have no idea what to write in the proposal. I have one hour before I need to jump in the shower, get dressed and leave. And instead of working I’m blogging and browsing the internet.

My midterm is on International Relations in the Middle East which sounds more interesting than in actually is. It’s very theoretical, which I detest. Theories are annoying, people just come up with these random notions about what’s going on in the world and they’re rarely applied, honest to God I don’t know why they bother themselves or better yet why should we be bothered. The quiz is for my sociology class (Social Problems in the Middle East). Don’t really know what’s on it but, I think it has to do with poverty; a lot of Middle Eastern issues today. I don’t know what to do, plus I just wasted an hour doing absolutely NOTHING!!!!

That being said I have to go.

End of the Semester (Terrorism)

I’m suffering from a severe migraine right now and I’m starving but there’s nothing to eat and I kind of spent most of my money; not to mention I missed the bus.  So I’ve decided to write this entry because the alternative, writing my history paper, is painful to even think about when I haven’t slept. I slept a total of about 5 hours in the past 48 hours, which isn’t abnormal for me but it’s fucking exhausting.

Today I finished my second, and final, final exam. It was introduction to mass communication, which I studied for this morning, but it was pretty straight forward so I didn’t have a problem with it. Yesterday I submitted my rhetoric portfolio, which contained every draft of every piece of writing we’ve done from the beginning of the semester. By submitting this complete body of work, I felt this sense of accomplishment; like it was all worth it in the end. I wrote the first and second draft of my final paper the night before and the book review, on a book I hadn’t even read, the next morning. This just proves that I am able to get my shit done on time, regardless of how or when it’s done.

But all of this isn’t entirely relevant to the topic of this entry. My final history class was yesterday, which I’m really sad is over. I really enjoyed that class, plus the professor is awesome. However I still need to write a 4,000 word paper for this class; comparing two types of terrorism in Europe one from the 19th century and the other from the 20th or the 21st century. The topic is quite interesting as was the course. So what I’ve done today was look for books on Russian anarchists and state sponsored terrorism in the library. Because what I’ll probably do is compare the tactics of the Russian anarchists to Stalin’s tactics during his rule of the USSR.

I realized that this would be my sixth paper on terrorism or a terrorism related topic. For some reason I find it to be very interesting. I attempted to write a paper about democracy once, got bored out of my mind, and ended up changing the topic to tyranny. What I also realized is that Poli-Sci majors have the capacity as well as the right to joke about terrorism. Because after all when you research the topic as often as I have you are allowed to joke about dating Hitler or Stalin or both. I realize that murders, dictators, tyranny and totalitarian regimes are not a joke, but unless you put a humorous spin to it, it will totally fuck you up. Believe me just trying to imagine how anyone can be that vicious is disturbing. So imagine watching a video about concentration camps, which was quite graphic I might add, at three in the morning*. Anyway putting aside the fact that political science completely screws with your brain sometimes, I’m really looking forward to researching this topic. Not entirely looking forward to writing such a long paper though, but I’d like to see how it will turn out.

*Had to write a paper on concentration camps for a previous history class, with the same professor, while using Elie Wiesel’s autobiographical novel Night (which is inclredible) as a primary source. When doing my research I came across an interview with the author on Oprah in Auschwitz. The video included pictures and clips of former prisoners during their time in the camp as well as hundreds of corpses. Good stuff! And there is no better time to watch it than at 3:00 am.

End of the Semester

The end of the semester is a PAIN!!! I have three research papers to write in a week which is physically impossible, but it needs to be done. All the professors leave the final papers to the end of the semester, which makes sense since they are our final papers. But the problem is when you have three of them due on the same week. The bigger problem is you can’t fuck them up because each research paper is worth 30-40% of the overall grade of the class. So if you do in fact write a shitty paper you’re screwed and all the work that you’ve done throughout the semester would have gone to waste.

The research papers are assigned on the first day of classes, but the topics are usually aren’t chosen and approved until the mid or near the end of the semester. However no one actually starts working on their research paper except a couple of days before the due date and here comes the real problem. By the end of the semester everyone is overwhelmed with finals and projects that the papers start seeming like an actual pain, and even if you were excited about a certain topic by the time you start working on it you would’ve lost interest.

I’m supposed to be working on a paper about Piracy in Somalia, which you have no idea how excited I was about. I know some people might think I’m crazy for saying something like that but I really think it’s a very interesting topic that’s why I chose it to begin with. Now I’m tired, I haven’t slept that well and the idea that this paper is due tomorrow is killing me. I chose this topic about a month ago. Of course don’t ask me why I haven’t started on it until now because my response will be who does that, plus I should win the Nobel Prize for procrastination (believe me that’s how bad I am).

I wish I could tell the professors to assign research papers earlier on in the semester, so we wouldn’t have to work on that many research papers at the same time and they all end   sucking. Or telling the university administration to give us the last week of the semester off so we would have time to work on our final papers and study for out exams. But unfortunately neither of those options is possible. I am completely FUCKED!

Wish me Luck 🙂

Ranting II

Should be working on my Political Economy paper which is 2 weeks over-due!!!! But instead I’m checking my mail, complaining with my sister, who has an economics exam on 7 chapters: FUCK, tweeting and blogging as usual. I don’t know why I find it more enjoyable to blog at random hours of the day especially when I should be working. Came home at 9:30pm from college last night, which I’ve more times than I can care to count, believe me, but last night I was supposed to be working on the paper I’m supposed to be working on right now. Somehow I ended up doing my history assignment instead; at least I got that out-of-the-way.

Why is my pronunciation always clearer in my head and especially when I’m writing? Weird :S

“Enunciate!” Which movie is that in? Why do I always have random movie quotes and tunes from various songs running around in my head? Never mind, completely irrelevant.

The thing about this paper is; I don’t dislike the topic. In fact I enjoy this topic. You would think writing a research paper about trash, quite literally, is boring but it’s not- I swear spell check has fucked up my spelling more than it’s already fuck up. Anyway back to the paper because I’ve given myself 5 more minutes for this blog entry until I have to go continue working the paper.  It’s about hazardous waste –trash like I’ve mentioned before- however I enjoy studying environmental issues. They’re very interesting at least more interesting that governmental policies. I would much rather be doing something more artistic but what the hell. At least I’m doing well for the most part.

Time’s up!!

Ranting

Woke up at 2:30 this morning, over two hours later all I did was read 2 pages. What I’m supposed to be doing: working on my history assignment or doing research. What I’m actually doing: blogging, watching Julie and Julia, checking Facebook, tweeting and just browsing the internet.  This movie always makes me hungry even though I can’t eat at all. Because guess what I had for breakfast, at 3:00 am: liver, coffee and a chocolate bar. Extremely random I know.

History Reading topics: Terrorism, communist manifestos, the Red army and the IRA. Very intriguing topics for 5:00 am I know. I also haven’t started my research paper for my children’s literature class yet. I can actually feel my brain swell whenever I think about the amount of work I have to do. And the real problem is the more work I have; the more reluctant I am to do it.

The internet is also very slow, which is really getting on my nerves. My headphones are not working and there’s something wrong with my iTunes. And don’t even get me started on my blackberry internet service. What is the point of having all these technological devices in your life if they are just not going to work?

Mark Wahlberg: “Maybe, maybe not, maybe fuck yourself. My theory on feds is that they’re like mushrooms, feed ‘em shit and keep them in the dark.” – The Departed

Yet another morning wasted. Well that’s all for today.

Song of the Day: I’m Shipping Up to Boston